17 unread messages!

 i have 17 unread texts

on my shiny cracked screen

chipped galaxy

smartphone.

 

17 unread texts for things

i don’t even ache to avoid

easy peasy answers

all of two words -

 

i’m okay

i’m studying

i’m saying nothing because

to be honest

there isn’t much to say.

 

17 little ghosts of ghosted conversations

with people i deal with

on the daily

and they don’t even ask

 

am i rude?

am i cruel for

giving a cold shoulder

that i barely know i’m bumping them with

for forgetting words formed a week ago

and seeming oh so icy?

 

“i forgot” is such

a horrible lie to learn

since it’s sometimes straightforward

truth.

 

a million messages slip

through my sight

through my fingers

and my mind

with all its might

cannot catch them.

and away slips

seventeen.

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