new death every night

      we

are Going to Die

right 

here, right

   now,


          and No One

    takes me 

seriously - it’s been

jolting 

break

crumble



                                        and all of my

teeth are


breaking into


Little Pieces


in my

mouth.



I was in

    a Fifteen

car pileup in

my dream last



night, and


   i have bruises where 

there shouldn’t be 

bruises today

of

all days

and just two days ago




i drowned

and woke 

                          up with pneumonia 

    and water in 

my eyes


and my 

heart

              is bursting into viscera

and i keep 

burning

and 

freezing

and 


i got 

          stabbed and

here is 

the wound 

in my

gut  



Dear,


when will 

you believe that i am

am i Dying?

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